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[Filter: Kail]

You know ... I saw you hovering around that wagon, earlier.

Look.

I know you're trying very hard to pretend like I'm not here, like I'm not perfectly capable of seeing what's happening. You can hide from me all you like, but I know you too well for this nonsense, Kail, I always have. You've never gotten away with this sort of thing with me, and just because this is about me doesn't change that. This is awful. I know you think so, too. We've barely spoken, you make excuses so you don't have to see me. Do you think I don't know? Not even you can be that dense.

I need you to understand that I understand. You can't be something that you're not, I know that better than most anyone. It's -- frankly insulting, that you think you know better than I do! You don't, you absolutely do not.

And all this is doing is ruining whatever we could have salvaged, after ... after everything, and that's worse than anything else that could possibly happen, can't you see that?

I don't want this. I can't stand this, anymore. I don't want another awkward, terrible minute of any of this, and I know you feel the same. All right? Do you understand what I'm saying?

I don't want a rose.

I just want my best friend back ...